They taught me everything

It's funny how when I was growing up, I always told myself I would never raise my kids the way my parents raised me. They were so unfair, and unfit to be parents. They never saw life through my eyes and they never could relate to me. Now I realize, they did everything perfectly. I am not self-centered, but I like to think I am a good person. I never got into drugs, I am not an obsessive drinker, I don't lie, and I take pride in most everything I do. I didn't end up this way because I one day said "Hey, this is how I am going to live my life." Nope, we all know who is responsible for that. My parents. They taught me everything I needed to know, told me when I was wrong, and supported me from the side lines. Even if they did shout embarrassing things, and danced in front of my entire school during Senior night at one of the football games. But those are the memories I keep with me now that my parents let go of my hand and told me it was time to leave them, and start my own life. I take the skills and knowledge they gave me, and bring it to my own family. I'm still stupid when it comes to life, I don't know nearly as much as I probably think I do, and I will be first to admit that, but what I do know, helps me learn more. I never really got to thank my parents properly for all that they have done for me, and I should now that I am thinking about it. However, I know I don't have to say anything for them to know how grateful I am. Turns out, they know a lot more on what is going on inside my head than I do. (Which in some cases is scary!) I didn't mean for this blog to be sappy, but I was thinking about my life and where I am today, and I wouldn't be where I am if it weren't for two very important people in my life, my mom and my dad! Here I am, living in my own house, with a husband and a cat, able to support ourselves and live the way we want. Yet, even though I am able to live anyway I want, the way I was raised, I still think to myself "What would mom and dad think of this" before I make any decision. The answer usually lead me into the right direction, and therefore, I am in a place in my life where I couldn't be happier! Although, there are some down sides to my life, but it's part of this roller coaster we call life, right?

I love my husband, more than anything! He is my world, and makes me the happiest I have ever been. However, I can't help but think about the day he will be deployed. The day where he will step onto that boat, and it will be months maybe even a year or more before I see him again. I think about how lonely I am now, and I still get to see him every night, and lay in bed with him, feeling warm and safe. How will I sleep while he isn't there? It will be so weird cooking for one, and not two. Doing laundry for one, and dishes for one (although, there will be a lot less, and maybe there will be a light at the end of that cold, dark tunnel).  I don't want to think about it, but I do, and i know he worries about it too. Not for what he will have to go through, but what I will have to go through. He never thinks about himself, and i know most of you are thinking that is a great quality in a man. It is, but sometimes he needs to take care of himself, because I can only do so much. Anyway, we still have about a year before he will be deployed, but it will always be on my mind. I know when he leaves I will be calling my mommy up and making her come visit me for a week! 

As for now, I need to continue concentrating on getting a job. I have applied at a few more places that have just recently started to hire people. I think I applied right as they notified the public that they are hiring, so hopefully I will hear back! I can't wait to start working! Make my own friends, bring in some income and help pay off the Prius, as well as buy a new Digital camera. Not just any camera, I want a Nikon, one of those $800.00 and up ones! I am getting back into photography, and hope to make a  hobby of it! When Matt and I get our first puppy I will be taking tons of photos and making a scrapbook of him! So those are some of my goals for right now. 

So this weekend will be a ton of fun! Matt and I are going to go sailing on Saturday, and possibly kayaking on Sunday! Sailing will be a ton of fun, since his shipmates will be coming along (he told them about it, and they all wanted to join, so I told him it was OK) I wont have to do any work! So I will lay out and get a fantastic tan! Maybe after sailing, I can talk him into taking me to the drive in! I wonder what is playing this weekend. Hope it's something neither of have seen yet! So this weekend should be a ton of fun, and I am looking forward to it! 

Well the evening for me is coming to an end, the last load of laundry is done, my husband is home, and we both still need to shower, put the sheets on the bed and go to sleep. So I leave you with that! 

~ Live, Laugh, Love