They taught me everything

It's funny how when I was growing up, I always told myself I would never raise my kids the way my parents raised me. They were so unfair, and unfit to be parents. They never saw life through my eyes and they never could relate to me. Now I realize, they did everything perfectly. I am not self-centered, but I like to think I am a good person. I never got into drugs, I am not an obsessive drinker, I don't lie, and I take pride in most everything I do. I didn't end up this way because I one day said "Hey, this is how I am going to live my life." Nope, we all know who is responsible for that. My parents. They taught me everything I needed to know, told me when I was wrong, and supported me from the side lines. Even if they did shout embarrassing things, and danced in front of my entire school during Senior night at one of the football games. But those are the memories I keep with me now that my parents let go of my hand and told me it was time to leave them, and start my own life. I take the skills and knowledge they gave me, and bring it to my own family. I'm still stupid when it comes to life, I don't know nearly as much as I probably think I do, and I will be first to admit that, but what I do know, helps me learn more. I never really got to thank my parents properly for all that they have done for me, and I should now that I am thinking about it. However, I know I don't have to say anything for them to know how grateful I am. Turns out, they know a lot more on what is going on inside my head than I do. (Which in some cases is scary!) I didn't mean for this blog to be sappy, but I was thinking about my life and where I am today, and I wouldn't be where I am if it weren't for two very important people in my life, my mom and my dad! Here I am, living in my own house, with a husband and a cat, able to support ourselves and live the way we want. Yet, even though I am able to live anyway I want, the way I was raised, I still think to myself "What would mom and dad think of this" before I make any decision. The answer usually lead me into the right direction, and therefore, I am in a place in my life where I couldn't be happier! Although, there are some down sides to my life, but it's part of this roller coaster we call life, right?

I love my husband, more than anything! He is my world, and makes me the happiest I have ever been. However, I can't help but think about the day he will be deployed. The day where he will step onto that boat, and it will be months maybe even a year or more before I see him again. I think about how lonely I am now, and I still get to see him every night, and lay in bed with him, feeling warm and safe. How will I sleep while he isn't there? It will be so weird cooking for one, and not two. Doing laundry for one, and dishes for one (although, there will be a lot less, and maybe there will be a light at the end of that cold, dark tunnel).  I don't want to think about it, but I do, and i know he worries about it too. Not for what he will have to go through, but what I will have to go through. He never thinks about himself, and i know most of you are thinking that is a great quality in a man. It is, but sometimes he needs to take care of himself, because I can only do so much. Anyway, we still have about a year before he will be deployed, but it will always be on my mind. I know when he leaves I will be calling my mommy up and making her come visit me for a week! 

As for now, I need to continue concentrating on getting a job. I have applied at a few more places that have just recently started to hire people. I think I applied right as they notified the public that they are hiring, so hopefully I will hear back! I can't wait to start working! Make my own friends, bring in some income and help pay off the Prius, as well as buy a new Digital camera. Not just any camera, I want a Nikon, one of those $800.00 and up ones! I am getting back into photography, and hope to make a  hobby of it! When Matt and I get our first puppy I will be taking tons of photos and making a scrapbook of him! So those are some of my goals for right now. 

So this weekend will be a ton of fun! Matt and I are going to go sailing on Saturday, and possibly kayaking on Sunday! Sailing will be a ton of fun, since his shipmates will be coming along (he told them about it, and they all wanted to join, so I told him it was OK) I wont have to do any work! So I will lay out and get a fantastic tan! Maybe after sailing, I can talk him into taking me to the drive in! I wonder what is playing this weekend. Hope it's something neither of have seen yet! So this weekend should be a ton of fun, and I am looking forward to it! 

Well the evening for me is coming to an end, the last load of laundry is done, my husband is home, and we both still need to shower, put the sheets on the bed and go to sleep. So I leave you with that! 

~ Live, Laugh, Love

Sick, or not Sick

Let's see, here I am sitting at home while my husband is away studying. It's so frustrating that they have to leave home to do their studying. Although, if he was told he was able to study from home, I can only imagine it would never get done. This weekend has been nice, and uneventful. Both Matt and I have not been feeling our best, so we decided laying around the house, watching movies would be a great way to spend our time. We were right, it was a lot of fun as we saw four movies this weekend. We rented, Inkheart, The Knowing, Monsters Inc, and Miss March. 

The only down part to all this, is Matt can only sit still for so long, sick or not sick, the boy gets bored. So he pulled out his slack-line, brushed the dust off, and asked if i wanted to watch him play from inside the car. Of course I did. I hardly see him as it is. So I grabbed my blanket and sat in the car, as I watched my husband balance, wiggle and fall and repeat, several times until he was getting worse than when he started, and decided it was time to give up and pack it up. He wasn't ready to go home however. So we went for a drive around the base to see what all there was out there, since neither of us had been that far into the base. While we were driving around we found a great place to park our car, and go kayaking! So now we know what we will be doing next weekend! I am so excited, I will be out in the sun, getting a tan, and right before we rent a sailboat next Sunday and spend the day sailing! The answer to you question, if you asked yourself, is no, I have no idea how to sail a sailboat! But, my husband does! He grew up around boats with his grandfather, and has sailed many times! So I will sit there, and look pretty, getting more of my tan on! Next weekend will be a ton of fun! I figure Matt and I will be feeling better by then.  However, sick or not sick, the house needs tending to, and laundry needs to be done, and dishes need to be put away. (of course, why would those be the only two things needing to be done today?) So I will post another blog later on in the week! 

~ Live, Laugh, Love

Life in the Cracked, Brittled, Brick Walls

I was told by one of my best friends, this would be a great way to waste my time with. Wasting time, something I used to hate to do, and now it seems it is all I ever do. I suppose being a Navy Wife, or any military wife for that matter, it's something we all learn to get used to. I don't want to get used to it though. I want my own life, not just the one I know within these four cracked, brittled, brick walls. Don't get me wrong, I love this life too, just not for 24 hours 7 days a week. 

I can cook, and I can clean, and most of these chores I don't have a problem with. I say most because there are those few chores, that seem to be never ending. For example, the dishes. Doesn't matter how many times I scavenger the house looking for those hidden dishes my husband left about somewhere, the second I start the dishwasher, I come across it. The one dish, sitting there, taunting me with it's crusted foods and fork glued upon it. Do I stop the dishwasher and throw it in? No, I already played Tetris enough getting what I had to fit in there. Do I just let it sit there, and let it grow mold until my husband picks it up? No, by the time he even notices it is there, the plate would have started to decay. So the only thing left to do is either put it in the sink, and let is soak in soapy water, and wait for the dishwasher to be emptied, or wash the dish by hand, causing my hands to look like raisins, and probably chip several nails trying to peel the crusted food away from it's host. Usually I let it sit in the sink, and wait for the load in the dishwasher to be finished, but then my kitchen seems to never be as clean as I want it to be. 

Then there is the laundry. I thought I changed clothes a lot, or I did until I saw how many times my husband changes in a day. This makes it very difficult to do laundry only once a week as I had planned. Instead I am doing laundry every other day, or so it seems. But the thing about laundry is there are so many steps to it. We all know the routine, wash, dry, fold, repeat. However, while trying to get other chores done in the mists of things, folding seems to turn into "throw clothes on spare bed, I will get to it later". Once the last load is out of the dryer and I enter the room where I have been storing all the clothes, I notice a huge mound of clothes teetering as my cat is happily playing "King of the Hill". Of course I sit there and fold for hours, shooing away my cat every 30 seconds. After several hours the chore is almost complete. I put the clothes away, but then my husband comes home later, he changes out of his uniform, throws it into the hamper, and changes into civilian clothes. This only adds to the hamper more, and then the last time he changes out of his civilian clothes and into his lounging clothes. Now the hamper seems to be half full, and i had just finished the laundry that day!

I don't mind the vacuuming, or the dusting, but the dishes and laundry seem to be all I ever do, because they never seem to end. When my husband comes home and changes into his lounging clothes, that is when I enjoy my life in these cracked, brittle walls the most. We sit together and watch TV, and even if that was what I had been doing previously in the day, it's so much better when I have someone to share my time with. 

I hope to get a job soon, so I have a life outside the one I know as of now. Although, I know if I did get a job, my life now would just be added onto, because everything at home still needs to be done, and if I want clean clothes, and clean dishes, not clothes with the funk, and dishes with the gunk, I need to keep up with my life here on top of what I want outside. 

Maybe a hobby would come in handy instead. I might pick up scrap-booking or pursue my photography. Anyway, we will see what I come up with, but for now, vacuuming awaits, and while I am at it, I might as well do a load of laundry. 

~ Live, Laugh, Love